OK, Well tonight I've been really thinking about my living situation again - I'm drawn to SD for the summer time perfection and really enjoy the people I'm with: friends, family, business associates. I'm inspired by the art and architecture, the beach, the grass.
I've been feeling lonely in this limbo, though. What should I do? Who am I being? I'm being free and easy, yet at the same time very hard working and disciplined.
I'm grinding through this Accounting class, doing OK in my personal finance class, really learning A LOT from the Principles of Project Management (which is inspiring and motivating me to tackle my web work with way more strategy and professionalism). I'm enjoying Matt's Spirit Matters.
I've been doing a lot of reading. And the last few days spending quality time at the gym with my step bro Ryan. "Take air from here and move it over there." :)
I keep thinking about that surf wax smelling KT from Saturday. Mmm.
I really need to be with people more often than I am. I really enjoy humans - going too long without being out social makes me feel a lot like Mike. I can see how he gets so tripped out.
What am I doing? Where am I? Going?
All these questions and the sprouting possibilities feed the art I make - but my art has been pretty black and white lately: numbers, words, measurable results. It's ok. I just feel that missing connection with my subconscious emotional art flow.